another ranting

I know we all have that one person who gets under our skin no matter how hard we try - well let me introduce you to my biggest pain in the rear... my mother-in-law.

This woman has been a thorn in my side for the past 17 years and I gotta say that I could definitely live without her, however, she is my hubby's mother and grandmother to my children. Although she acts like neither one.

I'm sure y'all have figured out that we're going through some financial difficulty, so I asked this woman if we could borrow some money. She says she'll see what she can do and then get back to us - that was over 3 weeks ago now. She's not answering our phone calls, our text messages or our e-mails.

This woman has butted into my life on numerous occassions - she told us that we should wait to get married until after I gave birth to my 2nd child (Terry's first)-we didn't wait. Then after we got married and had Josh, she told us that since his oldest sister lost a child the same day Josh was born that we should have her & her hubby be his godparents - which we did (however when I had to go through treatments for my cervical cancer and then couldn't have anymore children she didn't step in to tell oldest sister to ask us to be godparents for their last child).
She makes promises to our kids that she doesn't keep, but will go out of her way for Terry's sisters kids.

Terry doesn't have the balls to tell this woman to quit the crap and stop treating all of us so shittily! I gotta say, I've definitely had enough! I haven't done a damn thing except be the best mom I know how to my kids and be a good wife to my husband - I know that's what I want for my daughters-in-law when the time comes.

How can a mom treat 2 of her kids so wonderfully and then crap on the 3rd? I try my best to treat my 3 boys all the same - I totally understand that no one can love each of them exactly the same way because they're 3 different human beings, but they are definitely loved the same amount.

I keep meaning to get back in here and post something, but then I get busy with something else. The damn laundry needs doing AGAIN, I think it and the dishes multiply when I'm not looking or the neighbors are bringing theirs over!!

I'm working on 2 different sewing projects right now, a christmas stocking for my cousin's son and a table cloth for my great-aunt Glady. Both will be beautiful when I'm done, but I forget how much time this stuff takes.

Then there's the job hunting - yeah right, that would suggest that there are jobs out there to be had!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I'm not giving up, I'm just fed up with all there is to do. I understand I'm at home and not "working" but I sure could use some help. When I do suggest it, I just get that look and then they grudgingly do stuff. I just wanna take the day off from stressing over everything........I don't wanna worry about paying bills with non-existent money, doing the laundry, making phone calls, dishes, what are we having for dinner??, anything and everything!!

I don't want to go anywhere or do anything for anyone. If I wanna sit at the computer all day and just look at facebook or myspace or play a game on msn or pogo so be it.

Phew - thanks for listening!!