Dreams and Horoscopes

I woke up this morning from a horrible dream. With it still banging inside my head I said good morning to my hubby before he walked out the door for work. He asked me what was wrong and I told him "a whacked out dream". He looked as though he wanted to stay and hear about it, but knew he didn't want to be late so I told him that I'll tell him later.

I wouldn't have given it much more thought, although I've learned to "listen" to what my dreams say because I know there are sometimes hidden meaning behind them. It's like gut instinct - you can't always explain it but you know deep down that it needs to be 'heard'. Anyway, I opened up my home page at yahoo and here's what my horoscope told me:

Aquarius (1/20-2/18)
Pay closer attention to your dreams -- they may help you identify patterns that could shed a lot of light on your life. Your subconscious mind is working while you sleep, playing out different potential scenarios and showing you alternate ways of looking at the world. Sure, most of the images are weird or downright disturbing, but sometimes being disturbed is the best way to wake up from the monotony of routine. Your brain is hungry for a change in your life, and your heart should be, too.

Well, here's the thing... I'm trying to make changes in my life as we speak. I put in a call to the county daycare people and told them I would like to get recertified for daycare and that I'm reopening my doors so they can send people my way!! My dream had more to do with what has been going on in the last 9 months though and very little to do with taking care of kids.

I've been trying to look at the world differently, I even thought I was on the right track. I guess I'll have to wait a little longer to find out for sure. Just gotta give the world a chance to catch up with me.

Daycare - to do or not to do, that is the question

I was talking with an old supervisor of mine and she asked if I would quit my job and go back to daycare. She'd bring her 3 year old girl and when her son is born then she'd bring him. She said her brother's girlfriend was also in need of daycare. I know that a friend of mine wants to go back to work and would love for me to open my doors again. So that would make 5 kids all under the age of 5. Can we say glutton for punishment??

Even though that seems crazy - I gotta tell you that I am severely tempted. I know that I need to weigh my pros and cons on this - I really miss spending time with kids. Kids are so much easier to deal with than adults! :-) One of the cons is that I would have to rearrange the boys bedrooms again (hate doing that). Money would be more strained for a while. I enjoy doing daycare; spending time with my kids and those other kids, my stress level would prob go down. There are definitely some good sides to this.

I know I'd miss some of the people I work with - I don't even mind the job, but there are some people I could live without. I want to weigh this out cuz I don't want to jump in feet first and end up getting stuck!

I guess I just to put some thought into this. Any suggestions??

SNOW!!!

Another Valentine's Day has passed, another birthday followed closely behind. Almost hard to believe how quickly the year is going by - only 9 more days of Feb left.

We set the record for the amount of snowfall this season 2007-08. I think I heard 83.7 inches has fallen to the ground. Thank God that we had some warm days to melt some of it away so there isn't quite as much sitting around my driveway or covering the roads. You'd think by now people would know how to drive in this stuff. Unfortunately there are some that are still driving too fast or too slow for conditions and they are going into the ditches. A couple of weeks ago we got almost a foot of snow in less than 8 hours - of course I had spent those 8 hours at work. One of my co-workers couldn't get her car unburied, so I gave her a ride home and then picked her up in the a.m. and took her to work the next day. We have some wonderful guys at work that dug her car out for her that Thursday so she could drive herself home. I seriously wonder what this summer is going to bring us - I thought I overheard someone say that it will probably be like back in 1987 (or was it '88) when there was a drought and it was illegal to toss a lit cigarette from your car window!?!

Happy New Year!!

I'm betting everybody thought I fell off the face of the earth. I have been so busy between the family, school, and work it's been unbelieveable. Then when I think things will slow down a little the holidays shot past and I am just getting through those.

I was looking back at my page and realized that I haven't posted since August - that's right August. OMG I didn't realize it had been that long, but I know that there was a lot going on in my life. Lots of it was way too painful to write about at that time.

Terry and I had some problems and we've been working through all of that - we still have our moments, but for a while I seriously thought it was going to be divorce court for us.

School didn't go as well as I would've liked this past semester. And I received a crappy form letter from my school that says that since I've got so many credits that I won't be receiving financial aid anymore. I guess I will be taking this semester off and reattempting in the fall - work says that they reimburse tuition and maybe they will work something out with me. My teacher says "apply for a scholarship!!"

The boys are doing ok - Logan moved out of my house and in with his father in Fort. It about broke my heart, especially when he decided he didn't have to come over for Christmas either. I'm know that things will get better. I remember being a rowdy teenager and not wanting to follow the rules either. I just want what's best for my boys and for them not to get hurt.


I'm just so glad that 2007 is over with and that 2008 is not ALLOWED to be worse than last year. We need to look forward, not backward - or at least if we must look back then we need to learn from our mistakes and not make them again. We all know that if we don't learn from the past then we are condemned to repeat it!!

School Starting

OK, Ok, when people hear that they think about their kids going back to school, however, I am the one going back to school - well for tonight anyway.

I start back to technical college tonight for another semester towards my accounting degree. I've worked long and hard to get to the last year - year and a half. I've had a lot of road blocks and detours I've hit. I've been slammed with things that would've made a weaker person give up totally and never to try again.

I wanted this for almost 20 years ago. Those who knew me in high school would probably recollect my wanting my accounting degree. Well I hate to say that I've been out of HS for 17 years now and am finally almost there. It has been a long haul, I've worked damn hard, and I feel that I really, really deserve this!!

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My boys start back to school Tuesday, Sept 4. They have all of their supplies and are bored enough to want to go back. I tell you, this summer couldn't end early enough to stop those boredoms!!!

Not just for work ~ sometimes life in general!

There are definitely a few of these that I feel like saying in my everyday life, whether at work or out and about. I hope they give you a chuckle like they've given me!

Logan

Well, what can I say about Logan. This is one young man that I am very proud of (just don't tell him I said that he might get a big head!!). This was at a friend's wedding this spring - Ain't he gorgeous?!?

Let me see where to start...this past 1 1/2 years he zoomed past me in height (I'm 5'8"), he's topping out right now at about 6'2". Most people think he's older than the 15 - almost 16 years old he really is.

I have to tell you though, he took the initiative to get a job this summer and work his butt off so that he could afford to take driver's ed this month.... driver's ed cost him $320 for the classroom and driving time. Tonight I'm taking him to go get his temps and that's going to cost him an additional $25. He agrees that he'll appreciate it more when he gets his license. He' got a ways to go according to Wisconsin State Law (6 months of temps, with about 2 years on GDL (probationary), then the regular license ~ at least that's how I'm reading the papers I've got!)

This was something that he dearly wanted (I don't blame him) and when I explained that we just couldn't afford to help him do it, he decided he could make it happen. Unfortunately it also came with some things that he had to give up - he's not getting in as many hours at work, and he decided to give up football. I tried to tell him to talk to the coach and work something out with him, but we all know how stubborn teenage boys can be!! :P

I hope that next year he can get out there and make the football team - I love going and yelling at those kids to move their butts. "Stay Low" may not be on the field this year, but I'm always rooting for him!

Logan will be 16 soon, 2 weeks from Friday. There are days that I cannot believe that I have children so old and can still be so young myself.